Wednesday, January 14, 2009

dear you...

I am so tired of hearing you complain about your life. You have it good and you know you have it good, but then why won't you just shut the hell up about how sad you are and how you can't get over it. Everyone around you keeps complimenting about how your life is so complete and you are just eating it up. You have a loving son, are getting ready to have a baby girl, you have a husband who loves you more than anything in the world...and even a damn dog. You may not be a millionaire, but you and your husband don't worry about how you will pay the bills and still have money left over to have a little fun with. There are people in your life that love you so much and would help if you just asked (I mean one of them even "donated" a nice chunk of money to the cause...he he he) so why do you dwell on and cry about the one that doesn't.

You constantly complain that you don't have enough friends in your life, but when people around you annoy you, or treat you badly even just once in joking, you write them off forever. You have no problem with the forgive aspect, but you are like a damn elephant remembering every damn thing.

You put on a great facade in relation to who you are and who you want to be, but don't you know that people can always see through it. They see down to the self conscious little girl you are who gets her feelings hurt when her son reaches out to daddy instead of her after a long time apart. Stop faking it. Live your life, its the only one you your family, get over your problems, and move on. Know that there are things you can change and things you can't, and learn to let go of the ones you can't. Stop smiling on the outside and crying on the inside, switch them around sometimes. Take what the people around you say and feel, and appreciate that you have people in your life that care enough to observe that you are here, and you are alive.

And most of all...

Posted by ME at 6:29 AM