Friday, February 23, 2007

valentine's day update

Ok, ok, its been awhile since I have been able to send a message to all of you out there in blogger-land. Well, as you know...valentine's day has just passed and I must say that my husband spoiled me this year... he went to Zales and got me this beautiful nacklace in this jewelery box. I'll explain it to you so that it can be like you were here in the moment with me.

We went out to the Olive garden and got a nice glass of wine, over the wine he handed me a red box with a white bow on it. He told me that he loved me and to open it. I opened it and inside was a really pretty porcelain box with gold embellishments from none other than lenox. I grabbed him and kissed him from across the table. He told me that wasnt it and that I needed to open the box. I opened it and tucked away inside was the most beautiful pendant on a white god chain. I almost cried. I love that man. The next day we went out and got a new phone...We got a great deal on it. Origianlly our phones are worth $400.00, $200.00 after an instant rebate with a 2 year contract, and a $50.00 mail in rebate. (so the phones are supposed to be like $150.00 after all rebates......) We got the phones for $125.00 and we got a mail in we are getting them for $75.00.......yay us. Beacuse of that we were able to get memory cards($75.00 card for $25.00) and a bluetooth earpiece($70.00 cost for $30.00), and still paid less than usual...
Also, on a less romantic note, I started working on yet another blanket.....its the round ripple, and I got the inspiration and the directions from the beginning from the web. After I got the first row I just started going as it felt comfortable. Now here it is.....I made it with caron sage and caron white...caron sage was sent to me from my best buddy AMBER.....she is so freakin sweet. m also making an elephant for her, but hes naked right now.....So I can't post pictures. lol...Ok, I am gonna go now. I have to go take care of the boy, and make some phone calls.
Oh yeah...and as part of my 50 book challenge I have read a few more books
6. Singing Songs by Meg Tilly
7. By the light of the moon by Dean Koontz
8. Red light wives by Mary Monroe

Posted by ME at 10:34 AM


Friday, February 9, 2007


You know, life is crazy...If someone had told me that at the age of 21 I'd be a married mother, I would have called them a liar. I love my husband and my son, but I sometimes wish I could be a single 21 year old. I wish I could go out on the weekends and hang out with all the girls and the guys I used to hang out with. Now many of those guys and girls don't even talk to me. They wont return my phone calls and it seems like a horrible life to live. To go from being a very popular girl, from having a bunch of friends, being the girl that all the guys wanted to hang out with and the girls all wanted to be like, to the exact opposite with just one + sign. It seems horrible, but the thing is, it isnt. I love my life now. I wouldnt give up my son and husband for all of the friends in the world. I am truly in love. The one sad thing in this whole thing though is how you learn who your true friends are. In high school I thought that LA FAMILIA was it....I thought that nothing could ever break us up. We all decided that we would be best friends forever, that we would get married together, we would all be bridesmaids for eachother and that we would all have kids together and that we would all live happily ever after. The thing is that that never happened. I moved away, to another city, state...started my life, completed my education, and moved on with my life. When I called back home i would talk to the other members of "the family" and noticed that they were still doing the same thing as before. They were still smoking weed, still drinking, hanging out at the same parks, going to the same malls, working at the same places that we worked at in high school. I knew that i was better than that, I knew that I was destined for more. I fell in love with my husband...and decided that
I wanted to be with him for the rest of my life. Once I realized that I noticed that some of the girls that said that they would be there for the rest of our lives...just weren't. Once I had my son, I lost the rest...
Now I can truly say that I have one best friend, one true friend. One person I knew I could call at any time. One person that I knew would be there for me forever. She stuck by me through my whole pregnancy, talking and laughing with me about anything and everything under the sun. This someone knows who she is, She knows that I would do
anything for her in the world and that if she ever needed anything, all the has to do is call me. I love her and I thank her. When I needed a friend she was there, when I needed a shoulder, she was there and I can't wait to grow old with her, to be best friends forever. Like I said before, It is during times of difference, when you stray from the "norm" that you learn who your true friends. I think that had I not done what I did, I would never have learned what kind of friends i have in my life, and for that I am thankful...So if there is one thing that I could thank
my husband and my son for its for opening my eyes......and to the woman that I now call my friend, I'd like to thank her for being there when I did finally open them. I love you...ALL!!!


Posted by ME at 9:44 PM


Wednesday, February 7, 2007


Recently i saw this posting on a friend's blog on myspace (by the way, here's mine) and I loved what it stood for so I decided to post it...


1. Never apologize for pursuing what makes you happy. Even if you need to quit your job, transfer schools, or move across country, always do what you really want.
2. Never apologize for using proper English. Keeping it real doesn't mean you have to speak Ebonics.
3. Never apologize for giving your best in a relationship that just
didn't work out.
4. Never apologize for being successful. Only haters want to keep you at their level.
5. Never apologize for crying. Wear waterproof mascara and express yourself.
6. Never apologize for ten pounds you need to lose. People who truly care about you will accept you as you are.
7. Never apologize for being frugal. Just because you save your money instead of blowing it on the latest fashion emergency doesn't mean you're cheap.
8. Don't apologize for being a single Mom. Babies are a blessing.
9. Never apologize for treating yourself to something special. Sometimes you have to show yourself some appreciation.
10. Never apologize for leaving an abusive relationship. Your safety should always be a priority.
11. Never apologize for keeping the ring even if you did not get
12. Never apologize for setting high standards in a relationship. You know what you can tolerate and what simply gets on your nerves.
13. Never apologize for saying NO.
14. Never apologize for wearing a weave or braids. You bought it so it's yours.
15. Never apologize to your new friends about old friends. There's a reason she's been your girl from day one.
16. Never apologize for ordering dessert or more than one dessert.
17. Never apologize for dating outside your race. Just because you found Mr. Right across the color line doesn't mean you don't love your brothas.
18. Never apologize for demanding respect. You are to always be
treated as a queen.
19. Never apologize for not knowing how to cook. Even if you can't burn like Grandma you know how to order good take out. (Right Girl!)
20. Never apologize for your taste in clothes. It's your style.
21. Never apologize for changing your mind, it is your prerogative.
22. Never apologize for making a decision from your heart, even if
others don't agree. You have to live with the consequences not them.
23. Never apologize for making more money than your man, you work hard and you deserve to get paid.
24. Never apologize for being you!

  The month of February is Black History month, and while I do feel that blacks deserve to be  celebrated for a month if not all year-long. I also feel that all of the issues that we face today 
should not be only quarted off to one day, or one month. I feel that black pride and black 
history is something that should be looked at all year long.
   On the other hand, I also feel that issues such as the focus on violence towards women or children, and homelessness need be something that needs to be concentrated on every day. In a time such as now I believe, as a black woman that we need to break out of the racial
constraints that we as a society have placed on ourselves, WE ARE ALL PEOPLE!!!    If my husband were ever to lay a hand on my son or myself I would need the same assistance that a white women would need...Plus a gun. lol. If someone were ever to hurt my child I would take the same steps a white woman would take. i feel that we as a society need to get rid of the black history month. Make black history something that we as a people do not forget. Let not blacks forget the wonderful advancements we have contributed to bringing into the world as we know it, and let not whites forget the shame of their ancestors, let not jews forget the strength of their concentration camp-bound ancestors, and let not the germans repeat the mistakes that they have repeated in the past. Let all middle easterners understand that they are fighting a war that is not necessary, that the land that blood has been shed over is not only no longer holy, but will never belong to either group as all land belongs to god. 
   We as a people...not only Americans but everyone should realize that whether we were made by a god, whether we have evloved from monkeys, or whether we were made from rocks and clay, we are all made of the same things. We should get over what is on our skin and get into what is in our souls and our hearts. Sorry if I started rambling...just had to talk to someone.


Posted by ME at 2:53 PM


Tuesday, February 6, 2007


Well...hello, hello, hello...It is me, I have returned. I know its been a while, Lets go back now shall we.....

In the past week, My baby boy turned 5 months...I know...hes growing up so fast. Only 5 months ago I was praying I would go into labor in the middle of the night. Dreaming that I would wake up in a pool of fluid...But to no such avail. Finally I went in and was immediately redirected to the labor and delivery...I was induced and 30 hours later I heard the cries of my new baby boy. I have never before felt so happy. I never thought that I could love somone so much, I thought that the complete and overwhelming feeling of love that I felt was going to dissipate, I thought how could I live my life regularly if it revolves around this little man. Well, I realized the answer to that question. My thoughts were wrong, This love doesn't dissipate. If anything it grows, I love him even more now than I ever could have imagined. As for how I live my life normally, I don't. I wake up when he wakes up, I eat when he eats, I sleep when he sleeps. My life has completely changed, and I love it.

I am still involved with my 50 book challenge, and decided that I needed a way to keep track of what I read. So here it goes,

1. If the shoe fits by Stephanie Rowe
2. Swapping Lives by Jane Green
3. Straight Talking by Jane Green
4. The other Woman by Jane Green
5. (in process) To have and to hold by Jane Green

And, on another note...I bought more thread, and yarn and a new hook. YAY!!! time to go crochet!!!

Posted by ME at 10:00 AM