Wednesday, May 2, 2007

The perils of a higher education

Hello again,
Well, I am attempting to go back to school. This is the hardest thing i have ever done in my life. After taking so much time off, I actually get physically nauseous when I even think about having to go back in to the real world. I have not been in school since May of 2005, and I have not worked since Nov. 2005. This makes almost 2 years of being at home with my son (either pregnant or being a mommy). I am not even excited about going back to school right now. I just know that the longer I stay out, the more I am going to want to spend time with my son. Just last week my husband and I had to go to a home buyer's meeting for 4 hours and I missed my son so much. What would I do when I had to stay away from him for hours at a time 2-3 times a week? I guess I have to do it though, whether i want to or not. My college GPA is lower than a 2.0 and that is whats causing so many problems for me. My plan was to go to another university, this one a state university as opposed to a private university as before. But they wont take a transfer student without having a 2.0...DUH!!!!! So my choices are to either have to go back to the school I went to before, which was ridiculously expensive, or go to a junior college.

I don't mind going back to the school I went to before so much, but the problem is that if I do try to do that i will not be able to get any loan assistance because my step mom screwed up my chances for that. It turns out that for months, maybe even a year I have been receiving letters and phone calls from the loan company requesting the money and what not. Since I have not heard any of this I have been put into default with my loans and I am so far behind that they want like 3,000 dollars all at once. there is no way I can pay that...Can you believe it? This is the same woman who ordered a credit card in my name and used it to make a payment for my education. This payment was in excess of my credit limit and was also so much that i couldn't pay it off. And you would think that since she was a woman who liked to be considered as my mother she would take a bot of responsibility for that...but no such luck. She told me, a college student without a job, to pay it off. This has set my credit into a downward spiral.

So, after this whole situation, I can not attend a regular college until I get this all straightened out, which would literally take me 6 months to a year, and every time I speak to the family they pressure me about school...Anyone have any advice...........still waiting............OK, I guess not. Well, again, thank you for letting me get this off my chest. I'll see you here...tomorrow, same place...different time.....TTYL.


Posted by ME at 12:24 PM